A Day of Reflection....

29 years ago today, I was a young 22 year old woman, left alone in a room to labor for 22 hours with my first baby. It was a period of time when there were no drugs offered, just a room, a husband and a clock to watch so you could count the number of hours pass. Looking back I can't say it was anything but overwhelming at best. To become a parent in itself is life changing.. but to go through what we did... well... I'm so glad they've found better ways to do it! :)

Looking back though, I remember when they put that beautiful little bundle in my arms and those big blue eyes looked up at me... all I could think was... 18 years... I'm responsible for this life for 18 years... now that's overwhelming. At the time we were in less than a stable position both financially and spiritually which also contributed to my spike of anxiety.

God had so much in store. We grew together. As a couple and as a family. Now I wonder where those 18 plus years went, and if I could have some of them back :) That little girl has grown to lead and challenge more people than I can count, she loves beyond her herself in so many ways, and yet she's only just begun. I've always said that our ceiling should be our children's floors... and nothing could be more true.

I have never felt more for filled than by being a Mom and a Nana... the challenges, the surprises, the emotional highs and lows...and remembering to enjoy each and every minute... it's what makes my Minutes count....